In three words, I can sum up everything I learned about life;
it goes on.
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Thursday, September 29, 2005,1:38 PM  bonding camp finish le.. it wasn't too bad after all.. at least all of us started to tok to one another liao.. not like in de past when we hav meetings, all of us jux tok to our own frenx n dun tok to the others.. hehex..=) we had de sharing session on de 1st night of de camp.. initially, i plan to jux tok cok nia.. didnt intend to tok too much.. but as i listen to de rest, esp after Limin's story, i jux had de sudden urge to jux share my stuffs.. as i shared.. i jux started crying.. i dunnoe y.. mayb cuz i long time nv really tok abt tis kind of stuffs le ba.. n oso mayb its been a real long time whr i really cry.. as i cried, smth jux struck mi.. i suddenly rmb my sec sch frenx.. they were de turning point of my life.. they were de ones who made mi realise tat dere is still love n hope in tis world.. no matter wat happens, dere will be someone dere who cares for u.. they brought love n hope to mi.. they taught mi wat is TRUE FRIENDSHIP... although i dunnoe whether tis friendship will continue for life cuz we nv noe wat will happen.. still, i will rmb u guys for life de.. cuz u guys were de ones tat let mi saw de positive side of tis world.. thanx so much for everything tat u guys hav done.. even trivial matters which u guys may tink is nth much.. but to mi.. it makes a big diff.. thanx for all de love n care u guys hav showered on mi.. luv u guys always! muackx! ^_^
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Sunday, September 25, 2005,9:53 PM i'm really sick n tired.. for 17 yrs.. life has nv change.. i've been tolerating for 17 yrs.. can she jux STOP screaming at mi on de phone.. she always dun listen to mi.. no.. is she dun even give mi a chance to tok.. de only thing i can say on de phone is 'halo' n she starts her shoutings.. no wonder my hp always spoil.. as long as she hears things tat she dun like.. she will start screaming.. sometimes when i cant stand her n ans her back, she will say i go astray n all sorts of shitty stuffs.. haiz.. i noe ppl will say she is worried abt mi n care for mi.. all tis i noe.. but smth is lacking.. de tat thing is call TRUST. wat is de greatest wish in my life? to gain TRUST FROM MY MUM.. even if it is jux once.. i'm already contented.. really.. jux once will do.. den him.. since young.. hack care mi.. i still rmb outsiders always say even though i hav a father.. i dun even look like i hav one.. wtf.. only when i was older den he starts to take notice of mi.. cuz he scared i got bad results n make him lose face.. still can rmb after de 3 mth jc thingy when i told him i wanted to go to poly instead of jc.. he totally disagree wif it.. he jux dun let mi go to poly.. it was only when i really buay tahan liao n i jux broke down in front of him den he got nothing to say.. cuz i failed everything in 3 mths.. even chi which is de sub i most confident in, i oso fail.. i was completely demoralised lor.. u tink i dun wan go jc meh.. tat time during prelims i wanted to go jc so badly lor.. when i saw my results, he didnt even noe how disappointed i was.. all he did was lecture mi n say it till like everything is my fault.. i deserve tat kind of results.. wtf.. n i realise one thing.. having a big family enables u to see LOTS OF THINGS.. dere is no such thing as 'FAMILY' in tis world.. humans r selfish in nature.. they do whatever they can to attain their motives.. so wat if they r family? ppl dun give a damn to who u r.. they jux make sure tat no one gets in their way.. mayb for some ppl.. FAMILY does exists.. all i can say is congrats to them.. cuz they really happy ppl.. but too bad.. i very suay.. no one in de family deserves respect fr anyone.. not even my parents.. after seeing all those fucking n shitty stuffs they did.. i hav no comments.. i hav seen enuff in tis family.. all de stuffs they did.. all my uncles.. aunties.. relatives.. no one is gd.. NO ONE! everyone is de same.. humans r selfish in nature.. tats all i can say.. i love NO ONE in my family.. not even my parents.. i noe i'm not filial.. so dun worry.. i will get my retribution de.. cuz i'm really tired of everything liao.. fr de fights, quarrels, screamings, shoutings n all sorts of fucking bloody shit.. i'm really exhausted.. i oso dun love myself cuz i feel i'm very fake... like a clown.. always smiling n laughing in front of ppl but in fact i hav no mood for tat.. i only love my ah ma, bryan n ivan.. i grew up wif ivan n bryan.. they r de ones who really TRUE to ppl.. mayb tats wat ppl say.. children are always real.. without my ah ma.. i dunnoe whr i will be now.. she is de one whe brought mi up de.. after my mum gave birth to mi n discharged fr hospital, she jux dump mi at my ah ma hse n went home. i only go home on sat. when i cry at night(baby), they will bring mi back to my ah ma hse n both of them will go back home n sleep. tats y i live a nomad's life. always hopping houses. stay in ah ma hse's for a few days den go aunt hse. even i now big liao, i still live a nomad's life. i dun like being at home. its not like a home at all. all i noe is dere r only quarrels, screamings, shoutings, arguments n all sorts of shitty stuffs. even though i stay in ah ma's hse, oso no peace de. oso same thing. whrever i go, all tis shit nv fail to follow mi. all thanks to tis kind of growing environment, i see de real cruelty in reality. dere's no such thing as 'forever'.. 'family'.. 'u can always rely on ur family during ur bad times' etc.. all bluff ppl de.. when u r really in need, ppl jux run away fr u.. even UR FAMILY.. to make things worse.. they even make things worse for u.. sian hai u.. betrayal.. dere is no one to depend on except for urself.. n 1 more thing.. tis world is oso very sian shi de.. no money no tok.. fuck sia.. dun discriminate ppl jux bcoz they r poor! so wat if u r rich, rich den dun study in neighbourhood sch la. go study in those filthy rich schs lor. fucking hell. i already scold u gals once liao. so a 2nd time wont make any diff de. not happy go complain la. GO! FUCK OFF MAN!assholes n bitches!haiz.. all i can say is.. REALITY IS CRUEL! HUMANS ARE SELFISH IN NATURE!
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Saturday, September 24, 2005,11:13 PM I'M ALL TANNED AGAIN!!! lolx.. cuz today got sc outing.. den whole day in de sun.. when i bathed jux now.. saw all de t shirt n shorts 'markings' on my arms, legs n neck.. sianz.. very ugly sia.. mayb long time nv sun tan liao.. lolx..nvm.. gotta console myself.. Being tanned means being healthy! yeahx! =p hehex.. face oso kana sunburned.. didnt noe tat until i look my face into de mirror on de mrt.. yx's face oso sunburned.. hahax.. anyway de outing was not too bad la.. but still not very bonded leh.. cant really like blend wif one another.. mayb need time ba.. anyway.. did a very bad thing today.. when we played captain's ball against kevin's grp at de 2nd station (i tink so..) i accidentally smacked cheryl in her face directly! omg.. i wanted to intercept her ball.. but i ended up smacking her face.. oh no.. i was so sorry.. Really sorry gal! =) cannot be so 'violent' liao.. muz control.. lolx.. =p but nvm la.. got my 'retribution'.. lolx.. got very bad blisters on both my legs.. haiz.. damn pain sia.. wth.. but gotta say a BIG THANX TO YIXIU! =) cuz she lent mi her slippers to wear home cuz i really cant walk with de sneakers.. its too pain liao.. thanx loads gal! =)
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Friday, September 23, 2005,9:58 PM went back to yuhua to visit de teachers.. we were supposed to meet at 11 am at 335 bus stop.. in de end.. yi n i were late cuz both of us overslept!!! lolx.. i tink we only reach sch at abt 12 ba.. i forgot wat time we reach liao.. hehex.. anyway, luckily we were not de latest.. de latest was jiting.. he only arrived when all of us had finished our lunch.. lolx.. anyway.. miss ong was on urgent leave today.. didnt manage to see her.. sianz.. i go back cuz she is de main person tat i wanna see.. in de end she is on urgent leave.. lolx.. nvm.. tink next wk shld be going back to visit her ba.. tats wat she said.. lolx.. den we jux slacked around in sch.. wanted to play captain's ball but cant find justin tan.. so in de end borrowed bball fr quan hong lor.. hahax.. long time nv touched bball le.. ever since i leave yuhua.. i nv touched bball le.. i only played netball in jc n poly.. hahax.. had fun anway.. =) went to yi's hse after tat cuz got nowhr to go.. lolx.. de guys played mahjong.. chun n i jux 'messed' around wif de karoake ok system.. anyway i oso dunnoe how to play mahjong.. only noe how to play poker cards.. lolx.. stayed dere for a while den milton.. kx.. chun.. yi n i went off le.. yi went to meet her frenx.. mi n chun went home den milton n kx went to give tuition.. n de guys jux stay in yi's hse to continue their mahjong session cuz yi's bro was back le when we went off.. so its ok for them to stay dere.. oso dunnoe they stayed till wat time.. hehex.. having sc outing tml.. muz wear green.. so borrowed yi's green t shirt.. thanx loads gal! =) tml will be a LONG DAY again.. tired.. haiz..
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Wednesday, September 21, 2005,10:30 PM yest went to town wif ying ling and xinyi.. long time nv catch up wif them le.. felt really great! =) bought jun n tw bdae present n went to eat NYDC after tat.. mi n yi were so sua ku.. first time see such a big cup of coffee.. lolx.. we were like.. WOW! HUGE! hahax.. had de thai trip meeting today.. nth much.. except we learned some thai language n stuffs.. learning thai is diff man.. more diff than o levels.. lolx.. i couldn't 'catch any ball'.. lolx.. hahax... wait go dere den see how la.. hahax.. i'm now obsessed wif a new show again!!! hahax.. 'PRIDE' by takuya!!! oh my.. HE IS SOOOOOO CUTE!!!! arghh!!! can get 'electricuted' when he winks.. lolx.. =p hehex.. omg.. die.. always so obsessed wif stars.. lolx.. hahax.. bo bian la.. tats my nature.. hehex.. =p but tat show is really nice.. thumbs up! ^_^hehex.. ice hockey seem so fun but damn violent sia.. lolx.. cuz can bang here bang dere de.. wa.. pain sia.. hahax.. but haiz.. sadded sia.. wanted to rent tat show n copy into my laptop de.. but cant seem to find shops tat rent or sell jap serial shows leh.. they only rent or sell jap movies.. taiwan idol drama n korean serial shows.. dun hav jap shows.. sianz 1/2.. i watch de show till so gan jiong den cant find de show.. walau.. sianz sia.. nvm.. if free go shopping den see if other places hav anot.. hehex.. =p
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Monday, September 19, 2005,1:33 PM slacking at home now.. nth to do..*ROTTING... hahax.. sianz sia.. so bo liao.. lolx.. anyway got 2 gd news.. firstly, EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!! finally man.. hahax.. yeahx.. tats y can slack.. hahax.. but tink not goin to do well ba.. aiya.. forget it la.. over liao.. tok so much oso no use.. as if my words will make mi get straight distinctions.. lolx..anyway.. going to my 2nd good news.. JULYE IS DISCHARGED!!! SHE'S WELL AGAIN!! YEAHX! =) hahax.. i knew she will be ok de.. hehex.. but she haven take her exams yet.. jia you julye! =) last fri celebrated xue fang's bdae in de aftern n jia yong's bdae later in de evening.. had lots of fun tat day.. sang k box in de aftern n saw sec sch peeps in de evening.. it was great.. long time nv see them le.. miss them so much.. yup.. hehex.. guess tats abt it for tis entry ba.. lazy to write liao.. sianz liao.. lolx.. anyway.. GOOD LUCK TO JULYE, SP PEEPS & JC PEEPS! JIA YOU FOR UR EXAMS! U GUYS CAN DO IT! YEAHX! ^_^
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Tuesday, September 13, 2005,7:26 PM tis morning abt 1 am.. was studying econs n yi called mi.. she say julye was hospitalised cuz of dengue fever.. i was like.. 'dengue fever?! oh no..' very worried for her cuz her constitution is quite weak.. but i got faith in her! she sure can get well de! Get well soon julye! kill those bloody mosquitoes! yeah! =) lolx.. anyway had cip paper yesterday n econs today.. sort of srew it up ba.. but hack care la.. finish liao.. whatever.. as long as dun repeat any module can liao.. hahax.. 2 more papers left.. tml b stat n fri ob.. muz jia you! =)*~*~* WISH JULYE A SPEEDY RECOVERY! GET WELL SOON!*~*~*
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Friday, September 09, 2005,1:50 PM happy belated 17 bdae yixiu! =) noe u like purple la.. so i specially use purple for ur bdae msg.. hahax.. yest went celebrate yx bdae at town.. got yx of coz.. bdae gal mah.. lolx.. den still got mi.. sy.. sherman.. kev.. vin n his fren kelvin.. had pizza at centrepoint's pizza hut.. den went to play pool at cuppage.. yx fast learner sia.. first time play very li hai liao.. so clever.. hahax... still rmb when i first played pool.. omg.. like shit sia.. hahax.. anyway.. contact yi recently.. den update each other on our lives n everything.. happy to see her doing well.. my bestest jie mei.. hehe.. but sad sia.. some of my peeps not doing well.. dunnoe wat happen.. ask them but they dun wanna say.. sadded.. not like in de past liao.. whr all of us can jux tok to one another when we hav probs.. haiz.. whatever it is.. jux hope tat things will turn out fine for them ba.. PLS DUN TURN TO SUICIDE! IT IS NOT A SOLUTION! i noe some stuffs r really bad to handle.. but DEFINITELY SUICIDE IS NOT DE SOLUTION! pls rmb tat family n frenz will be here de.. =) anyway2 more days to exams liao.. mon first paper le.. muz jia you! =)
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Tuesday, September 06, 2005,1:26 PM so long nv blog liao.. lazy sia.. lolx.. anyway oso nothing much happen la.. so didnt really care abt blogging lor.. hehex.. cuz jux finish cip reflection blog.. forgot abt it sia.. wth.. hope de teacher still accepts it.. whatever la.. jux soon bian make an entry lo.. lolx.. short n sweet.. hahax.. anyway now is study break.. finally man.. hahax.. but oso no good cuz exams coming le!!! sianz.. haiz.. not much of motivation to study.. oso dunnoe last time how i study for o's one.. lolx.. whatever it is.. muz buck up!!! cant fail!!! yup!!! =) To all my frenz.. buddiex.. sistax.. regardless of sec sch peeps.. poly peeps.. or pri sch peeps.. exams liao.. muz jia you k!!! good luck to all u guys!! n of coz mi myself oso la.. hahaz.. =p study hard! ^_^
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stephanie foong
18.10.1988
SIM (RMIT)
bachelor of business (marketing)
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